Thursday, May 1, 2008

Phew

For the first time in the last three years, I've made it through April without the baby(ies) dying. Two years ago last Sunday I had my first miscarriage; a year ago today I had my second. But today is May 1, and this kid still has a heartbeat and is still moving around. I'm starting to believe this might actually happen.

Last week I bought things for the baby for the first time -- I spent a big 40 bucks on a crib sheet and blanket. It's not that I don't have anything; it's just that I'm hugely fortunate to have many generous friends and family members. I partly haven't bought things because so far I haven't needed to, and I partly haven't bought things because -- even though there's ton of baby stuff in my house right now, provided by others -- I'm a bit superstitious.

There are still tons of things to do -- figure out legal stuff, decide about cloth v. disposable, decide about circumcision in the hospital vs. a mohel (don't bother flaming me; comments are moderated for a reason), get the baby's room ready, maybe pick out a few names, find a daycare center. But things are progressing: we've taken our childbirth, newborn care, and breastfeeding classes. I've got a dresser full of gifted baby clothes and a closet full of receiving blankets. I've got a stroller, a crib, a glider on the way, and two slings. And that's before the two showers that incredibly lovely and generous people are throwing for us.

Still: I'll believe it when I see it.

4 comments:

vee said...

Congrats on making it through April. So pleased to hear that all is well.

Lizzie said...

Love the title of your post. My nephew was born really early and is totally find and wonderful and so I call him my 'phew. Anyway, glad you're through April and having your own phew moment!

Kim said...

So glad to hear from you and that things are going just the way they should!

Mrs. Bluemont said...

I'm sure that this last month was excruiciating and full of fret. I'm so happy that it's May and you are getting ready to bring this baby to your arms. Congratulations!